Why Oh God?

I feel so alone in this despicable world
I feel as if you have left me to live this awful life alone
I constantly seek you and do not find
Am I doing something wrong?
Have I done evil in your sight, that you have decided that I deserve to live this awful life along?
Why Oh God do I feel this way?
I know you have not left me alone
But I feel as if you are hiding
You said seek and you will find
I read your word day after day, I seek after you, but I do not find
I pray to you, whom I have faith
But still I do not see you
Am I blind oh God? Have you really been in my central vision this whole time?
Am I too blind to see your glory?
Why Oh God do I feel as if I am hyperopic?
I see you far away working in the lives of my peers
But I do not see you here with me
Why Oh God?

“Wake up, you sleepy head!”
You then smack me on the head and my eyes are opened
I feel some relief knowing that you have not left me
You have been here with me in my central vision this whole time
You stood by my side even when I felt you were distant
You are my magnifying glass
You make objects clearer the closer look into the magnifying glass
The farther away I am from you, the more distant you look and feel
But you have revealed to me clarity that I may see you magnificence
Why Oh God are you so good to me?